What I Value Most

It’s been a long process to get clarity on these 5 aspects of being alive which I value most. I think I’ve been working toward this for my entire adult life, and it was finally during the 2019 holiday season that most of this finally fell out in my morning journaling. I suspect many people do this naturally and subconsciously, and I envy them. For me the conscious act of writing it out has been empowering. I find myself using these as filters to make decisions about what I want to do with this one wild and precious life. Activities I plan or events I attend, how to spend my free time and vacation time, career decisions, who I spend my time with – all of these are better informed through the lens of these filters.

What I Value Most (my definitions)

Community – Bringing people together. Usually working together on something.
Freedom – Uninhibited flow: personally, professionally, financially, emotionally, physically.
Adventure – Avoiding routine. Making each day feel longer because my brain is constantly stimulated in different ways. This is a way to slow down time; to extend life by staying awake and turned on.
Mindfulness – Self-awareness of who I am, what made me this way, what choices I am in control of, and how to let go of the things I can’t control.
Love – Heart glowing. Romance. Children, friends, family. Sacrificing my needs for someone else’s. Offering support for another’s hardships. Being tamed and taming another.

What if I organized my life in a way that everything I do filters up to at least one of these passions? What would THAT feel like?
Even back off from that a little – what if 90% of my life was spent doing things that align with these passions? Wouldn’t that be an incredible way to live?

That’s my next step of this journey. Getting to 90%. Some actions I’m taking in 2020:
– Resigned from the Transportation Advisory Board. This is meaningful work that is valuable to the community and is often very satisfying. But it doesn’t align with my definition of COMMUNITY, so I am leaving this post in February.
– I love riding my eBike to work. Yes it’s good for my health, and for the environment, and for my pocketbook. But the real motivator is FREEDOM and ADVENTURE.
– Networking into the local running group at the office and organizing a running relay team in 2020. Inviting friends and musicians to play music every Wednesday. This is how I can help build COMMUNITY.
– Reading, watching TED talks, attending seminars, and meditating are all part of my internal process toward MINDFULNESS.
– Regarding LOVE, well I’m checking in with my kids and with my girlfriend on this one. 🙂

I feel clear and energized and can’t wait to see where this goes in 2020.

As point of reference I’m recording these mental notes of tools that helped me get clear:
– ‘My Passions’ Cards
– Advice from a speaker I once heard: “Where do you spend your money? What do you make time for even when there is no time?”
– This blog post about reverse-engineering your life style (Know how you want to live, and then fit a career around that vision.)

It’s Temporary

I’ve heard about not being attached to outcomes. But how about this sensible statement I came across last week: It doesn’t make sense to get upset or frustrated or angry if the current situation doesn’t match what I expected, because it’s going to change anyway.

The delta between what is really happening and what I expected would happen, or what I hoped would happen, or what I believe could or should be happening, can be small or large. If the delta is small, then I’m happy or content – things are going the way I want. But if it’s large, I find myself imagining how much BETTER this could be if only things were going differently. I know, I know! This robs me of actually experiencing what is here and now, but it’s so hard to let go (that has been my experience).

But what if it’s all going to change anyway? Doesn’t matter if it’s going the way I wanted, or if it’s not. This circumstance is temporary and it’s going to shift. Just wait a little while and stuff will be different.

With that perspective I’m finding it easier to be content with what is. Doesn’t mean I don’t make decisions to move this direction or that, following a path that I think fuels my passions or serves my mission. But it does mean that right now, tonight, even though my kids are out with their friends and my plans fell through so I’m alone for the evening, I don’t need to feel frustrated or lonely. It’s just the circumstance right now. It’s temporary and it’s going to change.


Been pondering the role perception plays on my life. Problems rarely turn out to be as big as I think they are. Or said differently, problems turn out to be exactly as big as I think they are.

So often my brain takes a circumstance – like a problem at work – and starts to turn it over and over, looking at it every different way, drawing from past experience and trying to draw conclusions. Attempting to anticipate how every other person will react if I choose to take one action or another.


Perceptions are the problem. Perceptions are this layer of interpretation, created by my brain, based on the collective experiences of my life, and put forth as “information”. They may be helpful or they may not, but the insight here is they are not real. Perceptions are not part of the current problem or situation. So they must be taken with a grain of salt. Depending on the situation and my personal experiences, maybe a VERY BIG grain of salt — to the point that maybe those perceptions/thoughts are not really helpful at all. Realize these thoughts created by my conditioned mind could actually be getting in the way; they could be making the situation seem bigger or worse than it actually is. And this is happening exactly at the moment when it would be far better to focus on what is immediately in front of me.

Much better to:
1) Recognize those thoughts for what they are – just a product of my mind which has been conditioned by the particular experiences of my life.
2) Realize my thoughts might be wreaking havoc making this problem seem bigger than it is.
3) Understand that I have the power to choose to let those thoughts go.

The 5-Hour Rule

This article, called the 5-Hour Rule, makes a fascinating assertion: that the world is shifting so fast and physical products and services are being demonetized so rapidly that the best investment to make today – in fact the currency of tomorrow – is knowledge. Our ability to learn will be what differentiates the most successful people from the less successful ones. People who identify skills needed for future jobs and quickly learn them are poised to win.
“We need to stop thinking that we only acquire knowledge from 5 to 22 years old, and that then we can get a job and mentally coast through the rest of our lives if we work hard. To survive and thrive in this new era, we must constantly learn.”
This is worth the read.

The Gift of Acabar

The Gift of Acabar is a book by Og Mandino published in 1978. It’s a very short book, only 114 pages and a fast read.  Yesterday I re-read it on the plane. Here are my notes and takeaways.

Every human has one very special power: the power of choice.
Although there have been millions of people, through the centuries, who have used their power wisely, the majority choose to spend so much of their precious allotment of life feeling sorry for themselves.
We all fall victim to this mindset, but it does not serve us. If you wish to change, you must choose to do the work to change. Change comes from within.
Along with the power of choice there is another very special gift: the spark of life. With this gift comes an opportunity – another choice – to apply your own special talents, whatever they may be, to leave this world a better place than you found it. This is the true meaning of life. Billions of humans have failed in this and wasted their lives. And this is our choice that we make on a daily basis – to fulfill our destiny or waste our lives. The only thing we have to do to fulfill our destiny is use the talent the universe gave us to make this a better world.
That’s it. Simple. Use the gifts you have to bring more light into the world. It doesn’t have to be a big light, you don’t have to be famous or wealthy or a genius. All that is asked is that you use whatever gifts you have to the best of your ability. If your skill is with a hammer, build! If you have a knack with a hoe, plant! If you are happy on the water, fish! If a pen does your bidding, write!
Adversity is not a curse – it is a blessing. To struggle is the only certain way for anyone to achieve their full potential. The brightest stars are those who have been tested in the fires of tribulation.
We live in a world that is filled with people making excuses for their failure because it is always easier to quit than to keep trying. Do not walk that path of despair.
Instead, choose to fulfill your destiny: use your gifts persistently, never stop trying, keep pushing forward whatever the adversity, and work to make the world a better place.

This reading sparked a follow-up thought in me:
When I see people – especially kids – plugged into their phones and screens, I am saddened because they are not fulfilling their true potential, they are not making the world a better place; instead they are wasting their lives; wasting their spark. I am not immune to this, I do the same thing to unplug and unwind and sometimes I fall into the trap and lose my way. When we can’t think of anything else to do, when we lose track of our purpose, then we have squandered our greatest gift – the spark of life.

North Broadway Reconstruction Conundrum

The North Broadway (Violet – U.S. 36) reconstruction project is scheduled to begin construction in 2020. In 2015, city transportation staff did a marvelous job winning $6.2 million in federal grant funding for this project through the DRCOG TIP program. The total project is budgeted around $8.3 million and by putting up $2.1 million of the city’s own money we are able to get a lot more bang for our buck through the TIP program. We do not want to lose access to this money.

One of the stipulations of the $6.2 million award is to have this project out for bid no later than October 1, 2019. Last Monday, July 8, TAB was asked at its monthly board meeting to provide feedback on the design plan. This was not yet a public hearing item – it was informational only – but nonetheless during the public comment portion of the meeting we heard from nearly 20 individuals in the community regarding their concerns about the North Broadway design. In addition, TAB received dozens of emails before and after Monday’s board meeting, and there also has been a lot of active dialogue about the project on Twitter. The reason: none of the design options put forth by staff do enough for bicycling. The recommended design option offers a 5-ft buffered bike lane — an improvement over the current configuration but nowhere near the grade separated and protected bike infrastructure that have been widely discussed as preferred facilities to truly invite users of all ages and potentially change travel behavior. We heard from the public a wide variety of concerns with similar themes: the design options don’t do enough toward our recently updated 2030 goal to reduce GhG emissions by getting people out of the cars; we aren’t creating 15-minute walkable neighborhoods; paint is not enough to maintain cyclist safety; it’s not about how safe a facility might be, it’s about how safe it feels; we need to lead and create transformative change; this plan is basically perpetuating the status quo; this stretch of road is designated as part of the low-stress network but who would let their 8-yr old child (or 80-yr old parent) ride in a buffered bike lane with 30mph cars (if they are following the proposed speed limit) on one side and cars parked within door-strike range on the other? All these comments point to the same concern – that the design options put forth by staff seem antithetical to our TMP. Yet city transportation staff are the first to admit they would love to do more. What gives?

There are two main reasons for being where we are:

  1. The primary purpose of the grant funding is to reconstruct the roadway along North Broadway in concrete. This is how the grant request was written and approved, and this is what we need to build. As we consider various design alternatives, it’s important to understand there are checks and balances to make sure our use of the federal dollars aligns with the original intention of our application. (For DRCOG funded projects, CDOT is the agency that serves this function and transportation planners will meet with CDOT to get their sign-off on our designs.) Yes, we are allowed to improve multimodal infrastructure as part of the roadway improvements, but for example we can’t switch to asphalt streets instead of concrete to open up some budget for more expensive bike facilities. We can’t shorten the length of roadway that is in scope. At a fundamental level we’re not allowed to change how we use the money.
  2. Construction costs have increased wildly since this project was proposed. Staff historically included a 2% annual inflation rate in its budget estimates, but cost increases have been more like 5-6% since this project was awarded in 2015. There is less we can do with the funding we have, because everything is more expensive now. (Staff has updated their practices to reflect current inflation rates in other projects that have been awarded more recently.)

This leaves us in a quandary. The project was initially slated as a roadway reconstruction project, not a multimodal improvement project. Previous TAB and community input 5 years ago made no objection to the project scope, so it has proceeded on its course. The community is now realizing there will be a huge missed opportunity, one we will be living with for decades, if we don’t make more out of this project now.

As staff listened to TAB feedback and community feedback, it became clear  we are stuck. The proposed designs fall short of community desires. We have to get this project out for bid by October 1 or risk losing the funding altogether. That’s less than 3 months to try to course-correct. (Staff has in the past attempted getting extensions from DRCOG regarding TIP funding, notably on the Baseline Underpass project. This is a tenuous undertaking because other communities who competed for this funding would be happy to grab the money for their projects. So, while it may be possible to request an extension, there are no assurances of success.)

So, what’s next? A couple of things are happening:

  • Staff and TAB have agreed to a special workshop on July 22 from 6-8pm to specifically discuss North Broadway. What other design options are possible, how much additional will they cost, and what are the trade-offs.
  • Staff has offered a 1 hour walking tour of the North Broadway Project area on Thursday, July 18 at 5pm at the northwest corner of Broadway and Violet Avenue.  This is an opportunity to look at existing conditions on site and understand location of the options and ideas for bike facilities to prepare for the working session on July 22.

Both of these events will be publicly noticed; TAB and city staff openly welcomes anyone who wishes to participate.

The good news is that North Broadway is nearly exclusively a city corridor and unlike many other corridors (East Arapahoe, Canyon, 28th St) the city does not share jurisdiction with CDOT or other entities. We have a lot of latitude here. The bad news is there is no ‘slush fund’ in our transportation budget to just reallocate the needed money from somewhere else. TAB recently approved the CIP Budget and there is no money that would be an obvious target for reallocation to North Broadway. How much money are we talking about? As a point of reference, at the July 8 TAB meeting, staff shared some back-of-the-napkin calculations looking at a new option for bike/ped infrastructure proposed by TAB member Alex Weinheimer; this option would add roughly $2.4 million to the project.

We will be brainstorming and reviewing other options, and hopefully we can find a design more desirable than buffered bike lanes while maintaining the original project objective. But it’s unlikely it will be attainable with existing budget. Whatever the revised price tag turns out to be, we’ll need more funding to make it happen. Where will the money come from?

This is my question, and my reason for writing this post. Whatever updated design options we come up with, we will likely need more money.

What are we willing to give up (if the money comes from the transportation budget)?

If we look beyond transportation, my understanding is only money from the city’s General Fund can be allocated to this project. First, is this true? Second, if true then what community activism would be needed to convince the City Manager to free up money for North Broadway?


Last Post For A While

This will be my last post for a while. This blog has always been an experiment for me – what does it do to my brain to capture a new idea every single day? Can I say one thing every day I’m willing to stand behind? I wanted to find out the effect that could have.

My original thought was to continue this until October, for one year. However, through this experience I’ve realized the mental bandwidth used Continue reading “Last Post For A While”

Tacoma’s Everywhere

Have you ever noticed, when you’re in the market to buy a new car, once you decide what kind you want suddenly you see many more of those cars out on the road? I needed a small pickup truck and settled on the Toyota Tacoma. For months before I finally bought mine, it seemed the only vehicle on the roads were Tacoma’s. They were everywhere!

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Pond Fish River Fish

There is a pond in the forest, deep enough for several fish. The fish are swimming around the perimeter of the pond. Around and around, always moving but never going anywhere.

Unbeknownst to the pond fish, there is a stream nearby. Playful rapids sloshing and swirling as the crystal water murmurs ever downstream.

Suddenly a fish leaps out of the river and into the pond. The pond fish are so Continue reading “Pond Fish River Fish”